I was scared.
I felt alone.
I was heartbroken.
I felt like I disappointed my husband and Carter.
I wanted to run away.
I cried constantly.
I was angry.
I thought life was unfair.
I hardly smiled.
I'm pretty sure I was depressed.
I couldn't see any positives in my life.
I dreaded the future.
I was stressed and exhausted.
I hated Down syndrome.
I loved my son with all my heart.
I am still scared.
I worry about the future.
I know that my husband and Carter are far from being disappointed.
I only cry every once in a while (it's not often).
I feel full of joy.
I smile all the time.
I am still stressed.
I am blessed more than I ever thought possible.
I have fun.
I am lucky.
I know I am not alone.
I have many new friends that are like family.
I love my life.
I embrace and accept Down syndrome.
I love my son with all my heart.
It's amazing how much has changed in 18 months. We've come a long way and I wouldn't change a thing.